hello, someone once told me this : blog when you're sad. so here i am. wells, reason why im feeling depressed now is because i realised i failed my quiz 2 for a particular module which i thought was almost the only thing i could do now. wells seems like i was wrong. and the light and hope of it has just diminished and disappear to nothing. worse still, i havent touch that module for finals at all. so yeah, screw me. screw exams. and i just got an email that my QET is next year jan, how nice. exams after exams. i mean like, is exams the only thing available to grade you in life. what happened to EQ or attitudes, life qualities and all man. why is school the only way you get to go for your future and judged by. and you just need to compete with everyone else so that you can shine above the rest. otherwise, you're just the same. what happened to living happily and harmoniously. and people are telling me : jiayou, dont give up and all, its not that bad. but its just not gonna work is it. after all it ultimately depends on yourself. sure the encouragement is nice to hear and maybe bring up your tiredness level a little bit but idk. i kinda hope my parents would one day say : just give up, i'll take care of you. how nice is that. okays i dont really know what am i typing either im just gonna go, study. bye.

hello people in the world. haha okays im not sure if its the world reading this but whatever. anyways im very happy today cause i went shopping with BIG PRINTS :D and both of us spent so much! =/ but something funny happened! hahaha we laughed really really loudly when we saw this top which, to us, is v ugly and someone was wearing it the other day during our tut. ahhaha i feel really mean =/ haha then i went to catch this show at night, its a korean movie, TSUNAMI. and its really sad. its like, the show is telling you that natural disasters just come and you cant do anything about it. which is really sad. even though the show was quite funny at parts, and the orientation of the show was simply weird, and the graphics at some parts were really fake, it made me reflect abit on life. im like suddenly daunted by all the adversaries in life. which is honestly about, fears. i was wondering if i were there, what would happen. would i be afraid? definitely. but what exactly am i fearing. death? or separating from my love ones? or just everything? and maybe, to get rid of this fears and sadness, you should just lone your life away. so you will not get all these mixed emotions?

anyways, on another random note, im beginning to think that sometimes people talk to people with a hidden motive or agenda. which is really sad to me. like just because this person will benefit you or help you in some sense, you talk to the person? (okays this doesnt apply to close, good friends. it only applies to acquaintances.) and why must people be so selfish sometimes. isnt helping people a happy thing? isnt sharing something good? either that, or uni's just too competitive for me to take. now i really feel like going overseas to study. =/

anyhows, im gonna donate blood with BONE tomorrow! haha im pretty scared actually. yet exciting at the same time. :D hopefully i dont faint or whatever! and hopefully i get to donate my blood too! alrights, i havent been studying since, tuesday. gosh, shoot me. and my stupid 110 assignment(programming) is still undone. i feel so frustrated. and i seriously honestly need to do something about my hair. it sucks big time. SHOULD I REBOND! rah. okays everyone, GOODNIGHTS (:

does it change; no it dont change a thing